Monthly Archives: August 2012

A virtuous path

Feeling a bit better today after massive amounts of ibuprofen, a therapeutic massage, ointments, citron spritzer, peppermint oil, Traumeel, Arnica, GABA nasal spray, brain music, vibrating pucks, etc., etc.  Call me desperate!  At least some or all seems to be … Continue reading

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Illusion of control

My back is so flared up it hurts to move, and as usual I’m stricken with this-is-the-rest-of-my-life anxiety, which I know it isn’t and know I’ve been through before, but the fear is there nonetheless.  Not only does it hurt, … Continue reading

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Dying light

Thinking of my father tonight; his birthday was this month. In the autumn of my father’s life, leaves of pistachio, liquid amber glowing red against a somber sky, like the tumor of my father, glowing red against gray matter. My … Continue reading

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They know not what they mean

During meditation this morning, I realized how often my thoughts form a one-sided conversation with someone else.  Don’t know who that someone is, unless it’s some other part of me–some gatekeeper, maybe, who scrutinizes the thought for seemliness, censors what … Continue reading

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On mountains, bats, and wine

Got back yesterday afternoon from a few days in the low Sierras.  The first two days were pristine, as was the lovely little lake where we were staying:  ducks, Canada geese, lily pads, long graceful reeds, even an osprey who … Continue reading

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Brain break

Came home from seeing a depressed friend this afternoon and ate half a brownie I’d saved from yesterday, then stirred together my favorite brownie recipe and ate four–or was it five?–more.  And now I feel headachy and faintly nauseous and … Continue reading

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A dark day among many

What horror in an Al Jazeera video of South African police opening fire on a crowd of platinum miners in Marikana trapped between barbed wire and police armoured vehicles.  Those who tried to escape were chased down and shot like … Continue reading

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